I need to get back into a routine of running but I'm finding it hard to do so when my children don't cooperate. Finding a balance between being a full-time mom, a part-time accountant, and my own person has not been easy. Struggling with a 5 year old who is fed up with Kindergarten and a 2 year old who is asserting her independence in ways I cannot cope with has put stress on me that I haven't found a way to alleviate.
I was hoping getting back into a routine would counter my stress, but it's the "getting back into a routine" that I haven't been able to do. Part of the problem is that my 2 year old is refusing to go anywhere, get dressed, have her diaper changed, etc. When I try to force her to go, she screams and cries until she throws up, and by the time I get everyone and everything cleaned up, the last thing I want to do is go anywhere. I'm scared to take her to the Y because even if we make it there, my assumption is that she will freak out until she vomits and then I'll have to retrieve her and go back home anyway.
I know I could run at night. I know I should run at night when my husband is home with the kids. But after a day of fighting, I don't want to do anything. I feel like the Queen of Excuses when it comes to running these days and I need to get out of my rut. I tried running at the lake yesterday, but running in sand is really not as fun as it looks in the movies and magazines.
How does one balance being a Mother and Runner? For me the term Mother Runner seems counter intuitive right now. What should I do? What can I do?
I'll go for a run. Wish me luck...
**EDIT** 1.64 mi at 11:12min/mi pace